If I recall correctly, I wrote this track at two am on the downstairs couch in my old share house. I'd just had a huge argument with this new girl I'd been seeing and been kicked out of the bed for the night. It was my bed too...
As I lay on the couch I realised that this situation was exactly why I broke up with the last girl and that I should probably stop making the same mistakes over and over again.
lyrics
LYRICS
Was I with you last might - I don't remember your face,
But I still heard your voice when I woke up - still in my place,
I know the way that we move and it isn't my fault,
I think that sooner or later you realise that you're getting old.
You realise that you're on your own and its different,
This don't feel like me at all,
Turning back again,
Bouncing of the walls... where I am the ball.
I left you today, you cried and cleaned up the floor,
I love no-one else but myself still I feel like the whore,
Sometimes there's things that I do that I cannot control,
I've been braving this weather forever until you come home.
I wake up and I'm still alone and it's different,
This don't feel like me at all,
Turning back again,
Bouncing of the walls... where I am the ball.
Where do you go when bridges you burn can't be crossed,
You told me I was the winner but it lingers and feels like a loss,
I know if I let this go it'll happen again,
We're the victim of systems and you pay for your good times with pain.
Until only the memory remains and it's different,
This don't feel like me at all,
Turning back again,
Bouncing off the walls... where I am the ball.
credits
from Means What It Means,
released July 4, 2011
Written by The Ellis Collective
Recorded and mixed at Infidel Studios by Duncan Lowe
Mastered at Studio 301 by Steve Smart
The Ellis Collective create a patchwork of emotion that recounts the sadness, sickness, love and indecision that weaves its way through the fabric of everyday Australian life.
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